Monday, April 14, 2014

Opening Scene From "Banished"

Franco sprinted from the vast gymnasium, a small speck compared to the arching ceiling and thousands of elevated seats.  He hated running, but he had little time to be reluctant about it.  As he pumped his arms heavily at his sides, he wasn’t sure whether he should be laughing or crying.  What he had done was against everything he had be raised to believe, but somehow he couldn’t let himself feel bad about it.  Nothing he could do about it now that it was done.  But on the flip side of the same coin, he just plain didn’t feel bad.  He knew the rules, and he knew what was expected of him, but he just didn’t care.
Okay, that’s a lie.  A little part of himself, deep down felt bad, but not for the reasons one would suspect.
The night enveloped him and in that same instant let him go as the light of a massive fire spilled out of the still swinging double doors leading outside.  He kept running, but hunched his shoulders over and his pumping arms flew upwards to shield the back of his head and neck.  This time a definitive laugh leapt out of his mouth.  How could such a scene not be turned into a comedy?  No one was killed (that he knew of) and the forces of evil had be squandered.  He shook his head and laughed harder.  He wasn’t so sure of that fact, either.  But to stroke his ego, he’d just go ahead and believe the evil had been cast back into the fires from whence they came.
Miraculously, he still had a firm grip on his weapon of choice, a Smith and Wesson 38 caliber pistol.  It never left his person, no matter if he was with his own kind (who frowned upon it) or with his mortal kind (who, consequently, also frowned upon it).  When asked in small talk whether he had children, he’d beam and answered with a confident and loving ‘yes’ and when he reached down to his side, the unsuspecting grandmother or business man would think he’d bring out a wallet full of pictures of his kids, when he’d instead be brandishing his gun.  He never tired of the plethora of reactions, all dramatic and negative, he got from his audience.  A huge pet peeve of his is when his own kind would try to tight cast him into a stereotypical role, asking, “Where’s your staff?  Where’s your crucifix and wand?”  He’d just roll his eyes and say he also had those on his person, but who couldn’t love the raw power of a firearm?
Another loud explosion blew his long crop duster around the long gait of his running legs, tripping him up momentarily.  Inside of that explosion he thought he heard a scream or two, but he merely convinced himself that the screams were coming from those devil scum he had been sent here to vanquish and didn’t allow himself to feel remorse or doubt.  The local fire department would be here after he had long fled the scene and they’d never quite figure out what happened or why there were strange throbbing radiation holes all over the gleaming wooden gymnasium floor.  After being perplexed for a few weeks or months, they’d sweep it under the rug, hoping the media wouldn’t get ahold of it, and it would be completely forgotten.  And with that, Franco would be scott free.  Leaping from a curb and into the deserted street outside of the massive building, his boots echoing off of the oak trees that lined the great parkway, he squinted his eyes shut, as if in pain.  He wanted so badly to believe everything would turn out even rosier and more grand than when he stepped foot here, but his conscience knew better.  He knew it couldn’t turn out good for anyone involved, even though his denial wanted badly to convince him otherwise.
He holstered his gun and for the first time since his harrowing escape looked over his shoulder.  What he saw made him stop cold in his tracks.  From the flames that lapped around the open doorway at the face of the building and up around the roof, Franco could see two gigantic eyelids open.  Slowly, in a seductive way he could only imagine seeing his own death might feel.  The pupils narrowed to slits in the increasingly bright light of the flames.  Two nostrils flared and sucked in the rising smoke below the sharp, spherical orbs as Franco spun all the way around to behold the beast.  It wasn’t an illusion, as his mind fleetingly tried to play it down as.  Instinctively, he reached for his gun, but willed his hand to drop to his side instead.  A gun would be worthless against such a formidable foe, especially one as unfathomably large as this.  His jaw that hung open snapped shut and his teeth began to grind as he found his mind worked furiously.  He held one of the highest titles in his order, second only to the original elders, so he should know what to do to squash the monster before it could take one step outside the fire, but his mind was frozen despite the hellish fire that spread and grew larger with each passing second.
One scale clad foot lifted itself out of the fire, up and over the collapsed roof of the shrinking building, and landed with a thundering earthquake to the parking lot sprawling before it.  Franco shuttered, not from the land shaking furiously beneath his feet, but because the monster, so large it eclipsed the 25,000 seat auditorium, did indeed set one foot outside the fire and he was still standing in the same spot, his mind not moving at all, as if it were made of wax and had melted along with the steel beams of the building’s infrastructure.  He had been taught at a very young age to act quickly under pressure, to go with his instincts, but it was like he had no brain at all.  The only thing that moved on his person was his eyes as they darted quickly as he studied the dragon, the falling bits of flame, and how the monster’s lips seemed to curl up into a smile, revealing row upon row of pearly white, razor sharp teeth.  
Franco’s mouth finally unfroze.  “I guess those portals I opened didn’t close all the way.”  He swallowed.  “Dammit.”
Suddenly, the gears started to spin in his head again.  He knew exactly how to contain the situation.  He lifted both his hands up to the night sky, his head tilted back to look at the stars.  His vision washed over with a blanket of light, as he turned the earth all the way around to the day side, and his eyes slowly began to illuminate a pale, oceanic blue.  The blue light of his eyes washed over his face and as it intensified, the light fell over his entire body, all the way up to the stretched up finger tips.  Muscles in his body began to involuntarily relax, but the light acted as a crutch that held him upright.  His heavy boots were soon half an inch off the ground and his hair floated out minutely, as if he were in a sphere of antigravity or sinking in a tank of water.  As if possessed, his lips moved as one word articulated itself in a voice not his own.  That one word, amplified to a thunder boom to rival the monster’s foot fall was, “Besiegen!”
His hands lowered, an icy glow permeating the tips of his fingers.  At the zenith of brightness, a beam shot from his hands straight at the monster, all four feet now firmly planted outside the pile of rubble that used to be an auditorium on a college campus in central Idaho.  Franco’s mouth formed words again, “Besiegen!  Hell Dragon!”
The dragon’s eyes darted to Franco and to the blue beam headed in its direction.  Before it could retaliate, the monster was enveloped entirely in ice and as it crusted over, Franco yelled another command in a voice not his own, “Schrumpfen Sie, Devil Dragon!”  With that, the dragon let out a high pitched squeal and panic tore through its large yellow eyes.  In an instant, there was only a shell of ice held aloft in the parking lot, the dragon now too small to see.  Franco began to lower back to solid ground, the blue glow around him and in his eyes beginning to dwindle, but not before he gave a nod towards the fire.  The huge dragon shaped ice sculpture broke in half and fell atop the raging fire and instantly put it out in a hissing, smoking finale to rival the fourth of July in New York City.  Fully aware of himself and his surroundings once more, Franco smiled at his handy work, but dug into a pocket on the inside of his long, black jacket.  He pulled out his wand, which he both loved and despised.  Once he held the small, yet impressive wooden stick up, he opened his mouth to speak one last command, but first shifted his weight from foot to foot a few times and rolled his shoulders.  His lips rose into a grimace and he tilted his head from side to side, cracking his neck with each movement.  He mumbled to himself with a chuckle, “I forget how stiff that makes me” and concentrated once again at the scene at hand.  He pointed to the smoking mountain of rubble and said in a calm voice, “Verschließen.”  His hands dropped to his sides and he leaned his right ear towards the disaster area.  The faint pulse that he heard the entire time faded out.  
“There,” he said with a finality that felt good.  “Done.  Devil Dragon, gone.  Why the massive thing felt like a visit to Idaho would be welcomed, I have no idea.”  He chuckled.  “Hell, why did I think a trip to Idaho would be necessary?”
He stuck his wand back into his coat pocket and rubbed his temples with the palms of his hands.  A sigh rumbled his lungs and he stood up straight with a start.  What had he been doing when the monster broke through the roof of the gymnasium and threatened to wreak havoc on the scene that he had already wreaked enough havoc for one day?  Oh, yes.  Running.  Running away, and fast.
The sky twirled back to the night side, the stars blurring in lines for a split second before snapping back into place.  The darkness took him, but not for long.  Red and blue light flashed in the distance, and the sirens grew louder.  He began to run again, but this time with more zest.  No one would know he had been here.  No one.

Who am I kidding?  He thought as he ducked between buildings on the other side of the main drag.  Everyone knows I was here.  It was all done in broad daylight.  

Copyright 2014 by Erin M. Truesdale

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Win a Copy of LIFEBLOOD! Now through 3/31/14!!

The last giveaway went so well, I'm doing it again! I have two copies of my newest book, LIFEBLOOD: A Poetry Collection, up for grabs! Just pop on over to Goodreads and enter. The winner will be announced on March 31, 2014. Good luck!!

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Giveaway ends March 31, 2014.

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A Million Eyes (A Poem)

A million eyes
Stare down
Dim and sharp;
Only I notice
And point up,
Bewildered.
“Behold! Look up!”
The Crowd
It stirs
Necks bent
Heads down.
My shouts go
Unnoticed
Even when the
Eyes grow hands,
Grow claws.
Eyes narrow,
Eyes glow
And burn my skin.
Shadow my face;
The eyes endless
A million
Focused on me
But only I
Can see.
They label
Me crazy
And tell me
To ignore
The eyes that
Judge
The eyes that
Ridicule
The eyes that
belittle
My every move
Until I am
Paralyzed
And defeated.
And they call
Me crazy
And continue
Onwards
Blocking out

A million eyes.

Copyright 2014 by Erin M. Truesdale

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

My Mark (A Poem)

Disclaimer: This is the first bit of writing I've done in over a month. Read at your own risk.

The end is always on my mind.
The plan is to leave a footprint,
A mark in earth, a sign of existence.
Dreams were an illusion
But I made a mark before I departed.

There is no other purpose for me
But to leave my mark
To try to make a difference in my
Twisted, passive, tentative way
The only thing I can do.

I was meant for so much more
But life has many paths
and I chose the wrong one.
I should have left a breadcrumb trail
So I could backtrack to my true purpose.

But here I am, in the damp, cold dark
Alone with myself and my thoughts
and the tangle of incomprehensible vines
Between my ears, full of good intentions
But capable of nothing.

A disease eats away at my brain,
my only real God given asset.
Overwhelming numbers of ideas,
Thoughts, and memories flood my eyes
And deprive my life of meaning.

Feeling hopeless and stuck
I lift my head up, try to make
the most of it by creating a few words
That will live forever in my memory

To leave my unique mark.

Copyright © 2014 by Erin M. Truesdale

Monday, January 20, 2014

World of Flame (A Poem)

The ceiling has turned to lava
I look up, gleeful, and laugh.
It puckers in spots, bulbs dangling
They drop and burn the floor in half.

I continue to laugh as I look about
The floor has given way to
a vast ocean of fire and I'm
perched atop a boulder, watching it spew.

I should be hot, burning up
But I'm pleasantly chilly, a paradox
so strange I begin to sing a tune
and find a trinket in my hand, a box.

What is this? A lighter, how strange
A utensil that creates fire;
In a world engulfed in flame
My laugh returns as I climb higher.

Birds fly overhead, so close to the lava
I wonder how they yet live.
I squint and see it's just the dense smoke
swirling as wings on the wind and don't give.

Lighter in hand, I jar it with my thumb
A flame bursts forth like a blade.
I feel the metal begin to burn
But in the face of it, I'm not afraid.

What kind of world am I in now?
A world that is real, and yet not.
The ceiling transformed, the floor gave way;
Now I'm really beginning to feel hot.

Copyright 2014 by Erin M. Truesdale

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Goodreads Giveaway! Ends January 24!

As many of you know, my newest book "Lifeblood: A Poetry Collection" is set to release on January 28, 2014! Yes, in a few short weeks. Wouldn't it be fun to win a copy of it before you can buy it? Oh, wait… you can! I'm giving away two ARCs of this book, which I am tremendously proud of, on Goodreads! If you live in the United States, please enter to win a copy! Thank you again for your ongoing support, it means the world! Cheers! -Erin M. Truesdale

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Lifeblood by Erin M. Truesdale

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by Erin M. Truesdale

Giveaway ends January 24, 2014.

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Thursday, January 9, 2014

The Fire

            She stood there, in shock.  The black smoke billowed and swayed into the winter sky, the below zero air producing a drift that seemed like it was moving in slow motion.  Her head tilted back, and she couldn’t help but think, as she crossed her arms and grasped her elbows tightly, that the slow motion of the black pillars slowly rising above her head was fitting.  Her own mind, and her life as of one minute ago, was now going in slow motion, as well.  She felt faint, but more than that, she felt numb.  The below zero temperatures helped with that, but it was more; it was due to the fact that her entire life, despite the arctic conditions she found herself in, had gone up in flames.
            At that moment, she could care less about the material things inside her home.  Not only her childhood memories and pictures, but her expensive things like her computer and clothes, were all gone.  No, she didn’t care about those at all.  She cared about the other people that lived there with her.  Above all else, she prayed they had all gotten out safely.  As a hectic scene unfolded around her, blurring the lines in front of her eyes, she realized, little by little, that that was not the case.  The heads of the brave fire fighters hung a little lower, and you didn’t have to be a genius to know what that meant.
            The blur deepened.  She looked up and saw only black contrasted against the arctic landscape; the smoke was black, the remains of her home were charred to black.  Her hands appeared before her eyes suddenly, shaking; they were also black.  How had she escaped?  How in the name of God had she gotten out?  And why hadn’t she rushed around to find her mother, her sister, her cat?  Why hadn’t she burned to cinders with them?  Was she that selfish?  Had instinct kicked in?  How had she done it?  She looked past her shaking fingers to the bay window, or what was left of it, on the second floor of her family’s gutted house.  That was her bedroom, and that’s where she had been earlier.  She remembered clearly being sprawled on her daybed, completely engrossed in her book, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone.  After that… it all went black.  The next thing she remembered was standing here on the curb, across the street from her house, alone.
            People had spoken to her, but she hadn’t heard a word.  They stood before her, lips moving, embracing her quickly, smooshing her numb face into their shoulders, stroking her hair.  Complete strangers, even.  She wondered to herself blankly if this was the norm, was this how all strangers treated other strangers when it came to comforting them?  Did they think that helped?  It’s one thing to loose all your material things, but it was another story entirely to loose your entire…

            A darkness enveloped her and the world spun.  Her hands fell and all she saw were the patterns the smoke created in the bright winter sky.  She didn’t remember much after that.

Copyright 2013 by Erin M. Truesdale